in the morning there was no current.was not able 2 iron the uniform.went 2 school in 'seetha'.went downstairs to sign the practical record of physics.saw ratheesh sir giving punishment to those who didnt appear for the parade last evening.i felt much depressed on seeing it.there was a srong feeling of missing in my mind.yea...i was feeling really upset.yester day also i was thinking so deeply wat on earth made me took the decision to not to join NCC?
i am feeling much desperate about.never say no to something unless you analyse it well from every angle.
shama bent over to the desk and started crying,quiet un expectedly.me and arya accused nidhin.i felt as if he was getting emotional.he asked me to call shama.but she didnt respond even to me.ananthu said "avaloru kalliya".i said ananthu that i had got something to tell him.then after lunch break we were together near the window(near the tap).he asked-"entha parayan vanne?".i asked him why he said that shama was a 'kalli'.he asked whether that s the only thing i was about to say.i said 'no' then said 'yes'.he asked "daivathinane sathyam?".i replied"daivathinane asathyam".he felt some spelling mistake and i knew very well that he would feel so.he asked"nee entho marakkunnille?appuppante maranam mathramanaano ninne vishamipikkunnath?alla....sathyam para ne enne aarayitta kandirikkunne?"i said "you are my best friend like nidhin and shama".ha said"ente chila kuttukarund.onnum mindathe okke nadakkum.avar vicharikum avarentha chinthikunnathenn namukku manassilavathillenn.pakshe avaru de aro movement il ninnum manassilavum avarude manassilenthanenn."i asked him why he said so 2 me.then again he said "enthelumundel para"."oduvil ,itha aalennu paranju katti tharumpo chodikkaruth entha ithu nerathe parayaanjenn".i could analyse his words 2 some extent.but i am still not completely sure what he is meaning.
in th evening went 2 lab.was really enjoying the time becuse sir was not there for some time nd we were free 2 do wat ever we want.
nidhin s nw asking 4 milk.at first i took it as a joke.but i think i have to think about it in another way that we cant say whether it is another way of testing me 2 get a clue about what s in my mind.
after that lunch time,open conversation with ananthu i thought that everything was solved.all misunderstnding cleared.felt really happy 2 get him as close friend.but nw,i think things r not going on in the way i think.anyway i am going 2 have a further talk with him on this matter.
had a friendly conversation with thajuddeen.he s considering me as a talented and brilliant student.wat can i say?haha.....but i really like him.i always felt as if he s my own brother.
in the evening felt desperate 2 see the NCC cadets planning 2 prepare 4 de parade.i left the scene.all the cadets came 4 de tution later.after the tution described everything that happened on the day to anu.in the bus ,a baby showing gr8 intrst towards de peanuts we wre eating given by my 'achan'.anu said she realy love 2 talk with me .she always want 2 hear more from me.she always talks 2 her mom about me.i am feeling really happy about getting a friend like her.we are so close.nw i am wearing her golden ring..........