Tuesday, August 11, 2009

a fine day..........

no tution in the morning.went to school wearing baby's new white churidar.caught 'sivaprasad' bus.walked to school from the junction.i was feeling really free beause i had prepared for every subject.shama came very lately.ananthu asked me to look at nidhin.i saw him having a bandage(cross) on his cheek.he said he cut away that swelling(or pimple) .sreelal sir didnt come.so we were free.started talkig with akhil kumar t pillai about the lavalin case.then ananthu came.together we started reading ,and discussing aboutthe jokes in the reader's digest.akhil said ananthu's parents are going for a honeymoon trip on thursday.then ananthu said he is going somewhere with me.probably to ootty,mysore...places where there is excess cold .i was simply enjoying that joke.but soon i couldnt control myself.tears were about to come out of my eyes.akhil sensed it.i was trying desperately to avoid eye contact with them because it will cause more tears to come out.i pretended to be talking to sruthi who was beside me.then took the water bottle and drank some water.akhil asked me why i was getting so emotional.i said '"nothing".they were having conversations without catching my attention.at that moment i didnt have the backup by shama.i was feeling bit uncomfortable.then akhil said that most of the people are affected with the same disease-suppression.ananthu agreed with it.akhil again said ,by watching some movies we get relief and i agreed.then when i was looking at ananthu who was reading the jokes with great concentration,akhil was keenly observing me,looking carefully at my face.(sruthy too noticed it).if i lokk at him he would ask "whats the matter?why are you looking so worried?"i say nothing because there is nothing which is making me feel worried.akhil was trying to get some clues from me.later i asked ananthu what was akhil asking me.he said that akhil succeeded in finding out the fact there is something about which i am worried .ananthu repeatedly said there is something which i am hiding from him.i said "there is nothing like that".he said he never think so that the only thing about which i feel worried aboutt is the death of my grandfather. But.see....now there is nothing about which i am feeling worried.then what the hell are they trying to hear from me?.what are they thinking about as the cause of ye 'sorrow'?i am simply not sure.....i dont know.....as soon as shama came after the practical i went downstairs to the toilet with her.we stood there outside and i explained to her everything.then we came back.at the time of lunch break,there was arya,nidhin,akhil pillai,shama,ananthu nd we were there together.unbelievably shama started speaking as"there is a prolem with someone else...when somebody look staight to rasiya's face ......."i blocked her.then akhil and ananthu started looking straight at my face.....haha......i decide to explain about my problem(tears..) to akhil pillai.but i didnt get any opportunity.i dont knw whether he will believe it or......any way i would like to speak with him tommorow. then nidhin replaced the 'white cross' with another orange bandage.gokri said if there was one more bandage on the other side together it will look like a big'meesha'.by the way,today gokri sang with the students in a +1 class,the song'annaarakanna vaa'.at lunch time,together wit arya ate all the curries in the lid of the lunch box of akhil.v.there was nandana at the bus stop.went back home in 'jinson'...........

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