Sunday, May 2, 2010

back after a long no. of days

its after such a long no. of days that im back with my blog.when i wrote the blog 4 d last tim,it was during my c2 days.really missing those days.
after the entrance exms,nw hav nothing else 2 do at home.

Friday, August 21, 2009

laughd a lot 2day......

in the 1st period ,there was the test paper by rajakann.then went 2 chem lab.did 2 salts.went back.
nidhin's jokes-"mukhathe e kuzhi adanjitt adutha kuzhi vangikkaam(2 rinsana).
radhakrishnan sir said-c2 oru family yaa.kutti kalokke aakomonnu sir inodu chodikanam"

sruthi put mehndi on my hand.i stretched my hands 2 aneesh as if 4 a shake hand nd trickly poured de mehndi 2 his hand.he den poured all the mehndi back 2 my hand nd 2 my face...went 2 tap.tere was aneesh,tony,madhu,sruthy....all 4 washing out mehndi.while washing shirt madhu s saying "ippam pokum,ippam pokum,ingane ingane onnu kazhuki thaada".
poured water over 2 nidhin's face.anathu accidentle hit my foot nd i hit him back well,dat he made noises of pain.he hit me at the foot a lot nd i poured some water over his shirt den he poured a lot of water over me.
went 2 lab again 4 cleaning up the table.
akhil said about ananthu's father as a negro.nd i said akhil,yea it is his father.but akhil thought i was supporting ananthu. (i think dats hw he wantd it 2 b).he said "oh...avante achane paranjappam kollunnu.ithilentho udaayippund".den a secret nd fast conversaton with ananthu.i could certainly guess something.......
aneesh said he will join the military nd wil at last die 4 de nation.he said he loves his grandma nd not his mom.
ashitha said -her brother died in his early ages but after giving all the love one could give in a life time ,2 his mother.
i said aneesh,-when u die i will come with de wreeth as de representetive of my company.
i grabbed 2 pens from nidhin's bag nd didnt give back.
was not able 2 speak freely with ashish aftr his failure in de election.
a very rainy evening.hindi teacher came 2 de class 2 give he papers of de test paper.ananthu ran 2 de table nd teacher said-"odanda,nadannu vannaa mathi".
a loud laughing bursted out n de class.
nidhin asked us 2 laugh aloud when his name would b called so dat no one else wil hear his marks.
went bakery with surya,divya and archana
went back home in 'aneesha mol'.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

in the morning there was no current.was not able 2 iron the uniform.went 2 school in 'seetha'.went downstairs to sign the practical record of physics.saw ratheesh sir giving punishment to those who didnt appear for the parade last evening.i felt much depressed on seeing it.there was a srong feeling of missing in my mind.yea...i was feeling really upset.yester day also i was thinking so deeply wat on earth made me took the decision to not to join NCC?
i am feeling much desperate about.never say no to something unless you analyse it well from every angle.
shama bent over to the desk and started crying,quiet un expectedly.me and arya accused nidhin.i felt as if he was getting emotional.he asked me to call shama.but she didnt respond even to me.ananthu said "avaloru kalliya".i said ananthu that i had got something to tell him.then after lunch break we were together near the window(near the tap).he asked-"entha parayan vanne?".i asked him why he said that shama was a 'kalli'.he asked whether that s the only thing i was about to say.i said 'no' then said 'yes'.he asked "daivathinane sathyam?".i replied"daivathinane asathyam".he felt some spelling mistake and i knew very well that he would feel so.he asked"nee entho marakkunnille?appuppante maranam mathramanaano ninne vishamipikkunnath?alla....sathyam para ne enne aarayitta kandirikkunne?"i said "you are my best friend like nidhin and shama".ha said"ente chila kuttukarund.onnum mindathe okke nadakkum.avar vicharikum avarentha chinthikunnathenn namukku manassilavathillenn.pakshe avaru de aro movement il ninnum manassilavum avarude manassilenthanenn."i asked him why he said so 2 me.then again he said "enthelumundel para"."oduvil ,itha aalennu paranju katti tharumpo chodikkaruth entha ithu nerathe parayaanjenn".i could analyse his words 2 some extent.but i am still not completely sure what he is meaning.
in th evening went 2 lab.was really enjoying the time becuse sir was not there for some time nd we were free 2 do wat ever we want.
nidhin s nw asking 4 milk.at first i took it as a joke.but i think i have to think about it in another way that we cant say whether it is another way of testing me 2 get a clue about what s in my mind.
after that lunch time,open conversation with ananthu i thought that everything was solved.all misunderstnding cleared.felt really happy 2 get him as close friend.but nw,i think things r not going on in the way i think.anyway i am going 2 have a further talk with him on this matter.
had a friendly conversation with thajuddeen.he s considering me as a talented and brilliant student.wat can i say?haha.....but i really like him.i always felt as if he s my own brother.
in the evening felt desperate 2 see the NCC cadets planning 2 prepare 4 de parade.i left the scene.all the cadets came 4 de tution later.after the tution described everything that happened on the day to anu.in the bus ,a baby showing gr8 intrst towards de peanuts we wre eating given by my 'achan'.anu said she realy love 2 talk with me .she always want 2 hear more from me.she always talks 2 her mom about me.i am feeling really happy about getting a friend like her.we are so close.nw i am wearing her golden ring..........

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

a fine day..........

no tution in the morning.went to school wearing baby's new white churidar.caught 'sivaprasad' bus.walked to school from the junction.i was feeling really free beause i had prepared for every subject.shama came very lately.ananthu asked me to look at nidhin.i saw him having a bandage(cross) on his cheek.he said he cut away that swelling(or pimple) .sreelal sir didnt come.so we were free.started talkig with akhil kumar t pillai about the lavalin case.then ananthu came.together we started reading ,and discussing aboutthe jokes in the reader's digest.akhil said ananthu's parents are going for a honeymoon trip on thursday.then ananthu said he is going somewhere with me.probably to ootty,mysore...places where there is excess cold .i was simply enjoying that joke.but soon i couldnt control myself.tears were about to come out of my eyes.akhil sensed it.i was trying desperately to avoid eye contact with them because it will cause more tears to come out.i pretended to be talking to sruthi who was beside me.then took the water bottle and drank some water.akhil asked me why i was getting so emotional.i said '"nothing".they were having conversations without catching my attention.at that moment i didnt have the backup by shama.i was feeling bit uncomfortable.then akhil said that most of the people are affected with the same disease-suppression.ananthu agreed with it.akhil again said ,by watching some movies we get relief and i agreed.then when i was looking at ananthu who was reading the jokes with great concentration,akhil was keenly observing me,looking carefully at my face.(sruthy too noticed it).if i lokk at him he would ask "whats the matter?why are you looking so worried?"i say nothing because there is nothing which is making me feel worried.akhil was trying to get some clues from me.later i asked ananthu what was akhil asking me.he said that akhil succeeded in finding out the fact there is something about which i am worried .ananthu repeatedly said there is something which i am hiding from him.i said "there is nothing like that".he said he never think so that the only thing about which i feel worried aboutt is the death of my grandfather. But.see....now there is nothing about which i am feeling worried.then what the hell are they trying to hear from me?.what are they thinking about as the cause of ye 'sorrow'?i am simply not sure.....i dont know.....as soon as shama came after the practical i went downstairs to the toilet with her.we stood there outside and i explained to her everything.then we came back.at the time of lunch break,there was arya,nidhin,akhil pillai,shama,ananthu nd we were there together.unbelievably shama started speaking as"there is a prolem with someone else...when somebody look staight to rasiya's face ......."i blocked her.then akhil and ananthu started looking straight at my face.....haha......i decide to explain about my problem(tears..) to akhil pillai.but i didnt get any opportunity.i dont knw whether he will believe it or......any way i would like to speak with him tommorow. then nidhin replaced the 'white cross' with another orange bandage.gokri said if there was one more bandage on the other side together it will look like a big'meesha'.by the way,today gokri sang with the students in a +1 class,the song'annaarakanna vaa'.at lunch time,together wit arya ate all the curries in the lid of the lunch box of akhil.v.there was nandana at the bus stop.went back home in 'jinson'...........